Happiness for Temporary or Forever?

After telling out the things I buried in my heart quite a long time, I feel like my heart suddenly become lighter. Something disappearing
yes, it is my guilty
I usually do not dare to tell  people how sad am I and I'm stuck by something or what.
Last year, yes but this year no
cause I felt that no people will love to hear how sad are you
So i buried my sad-est thing in my heart
asking myself what to do, how to do and the consequence after I did the things that I am thinking
My thinking always negative so it always threaten me stop my step
So just now I wrote out the things in my heart
without caring about the consequence, I apologize to them in Facebook
After I posted the status, the scary things start to attack my heart
My heart beating very fast
Then I start thinking the comment they reply
although it is same as I expected
but I tell myself at least I apologized
although it may mean nothing to them but it is meaningful to me
Now I feel so free
I don't know it's temporary or permenant
but I hope it is permenant...

可以持久？？

最近生命中多出了快乐，笑声也变得大，变得真诚了
我希望可以持久
我不希望再被那些人打败
假如可以，我不想见到他们 ~~
免得影响我的心情~
死开，负面的情绪！
把那些小人从我生命中一并带走~

饥饿30； 新的体验，新的认识

两天前，心情忐忑，因为考试来临，但我却要去饥饿30 ！！老妈幸好体谅，没骂我。 哈哈
到了培养小学，等到着朋友们的到来同时，我的行李被检查了，感觉很有趣，好像过海关，哈哈。进了礼堂，放了行李，观察了周围，可能因为七月吧，感觉有一点阴森。第一次见到营长，感觉很面善，可能在哪里见过，可是不认得。尾随他走到报到处，突然听见他对营委骂了几句，感觉他很凶，可是当他自我介绍时，我完全对他改观，他太可爱了 ！
全部到齐人后，便开始进行营员、营委、以及营长的自我介绍。我承认，我没记下全部，因为太多了~ 开始玩游戏时，我们被分成4组。第一项是比创意，设计口号以及队名，我的组叫“福禄寿” 哈哈，升仙了~~ xD 口号套用了王祖蓝的名句“我接受不到咯……So Good…… Huat ar !（发啊 ！）”有一点儿长，可是跟别人相比可短的多。比赛开始了，要以口号来斗大声，以及比默契。队员必须完全正确的指向想要挑战的队伍，其中一人指错就扣分。在开始之前，我们各队各拍了一些照片，从那些照片，我发现了我的缺点，怕生，证据：
啊~我也太僵了吧=(
比赛开始，我们设定好作战计划之后，便开始了，不知是否我们的站的位子太好指了，一直给人指，喊到喉咙都快爆了 =.=
到最后，我们还是败下阵来 
过后，我们又玩了寻宝游戏，然后，我们还玩了一个很有意义的游戏，名字我忘了，可是它却让我体验到了贫穷人士的辛苦，虽然不太真实……
玩了之后，我简直累垮了，完全忘了饥饿这东西。休息了片刻，又有团体比赛，营委们说：“你们会干着走出去，湿着走回来” 果然，游戏是以水来做惩罚，以及游戏进行的道具。啊……想起就累~
想起冲凉，又是一番新体验，到厕所冲，们还不能锁……还好大家都识时务，没乱来，不然就尴尬咯~
到了晚上, 营委们教了我跳舞, 也玩了二人三足, 好让我们忘记闷与饿得感觉...
睡觉时间到,大家都入眠了,只有我,睡不着 T_T 早上三点,坐在纸皮上望着被风吹得直晃的纸杯,心中不禁感到凄凉......
星期天早上五点, 准备上吉隆坡。准备就绪，报了数，便上巴士，一路上，我都昏昏欲睡。
到了目的地，Kuala Lumpur Bukit Jalil Stadium Putra 我看见的，是人海，纪婷婷还说：“哇，黑蚂蚁！”（因为大部分人穿黑衣……）进了场，看了演唱会，终于，我们都达到了宗旨——三十个小时过了 ！！
大伙们拿着解饥餐——一瓶V-Soy 豆奶与面包，开始庆祝起来，太感动了。
过后，我们到了KFC 快餐点去大快朵颐，吃得相当的饱
在回家的路途，我终于不再害怕他们，因为他们实在太好人了，又好玩，要好笑，搞得怕生的我也随着他们的笑声一起笑，一起唱歌，相当开心的路途。
开心的时间过的相当的快，不一会儿，我们便到了安顺。相处了30小时，刚开始混熟，就要道别，相当的不舍，不过还好我跟他们要了他们的Facebook 所以至少还能保持联络，至于能不能再相聚就听天了……很开心认识了他们，也让我重拾了我的信心。
我会珍惜与他们相处的30小时，饥饿30，明年再见 ！

道歉了，知道该怎么办了

每次都一样，当我想走近你的世界，肯定会有事情发生
每次都让我对你却步
这次想通了，可能我们只属于泛泛之交的那种关系
我不勉强自己了，也不勉强你
对你有时真的累了，维持这样好了，少交流，少互动
可能问题也会少一点，哈哈，可能我幼稚，想说道歉了真的可以改变一切
可以忘掉我所犯的错，可是事实证明那是很难的是
也因为这些错，让我的自信一次又一次的受到打击
开始不相信你，不相信你的原谅
真的对不起，对你我真的无法完全信任
但现在我想通了，不再不信任你，因为我知道，那些都是我想太多了
真的对不起，我违背了对你还有大家的承诺
请再给我一次机会，我不会再犯了
也要感谢你，让我认清了自己的路。
友谊万岁~ 你还当我是朋友吧，希望吧，我不想失去多以为朋友呢……

好累

做人好累，接受不了现实，就逃避
逃避不了，就面对
为什么不直接面对？
省事，省时，多好...
但是我就是怕面对，现实太恐怖
怕会比想像中还要糟糕，得过且过，最好，也最烂
最近发现，逃避现实真的很累
在别人面前伪装，跟更累
强颜欢笑，最累
我真的不想再折磨自己了
虽然不至于崩溃痛苦，但是还是不好受
想知道真相，但有心人有所隐瞒，算了
在追问，也问不了什么
好累，不想再听了，请直接告诉我
事情没有你想象中的糟，骗我也好...

我该习惯...

我该习惯了,太久了,承受太久了,它已成为我生命中的一部分.
我永远都会是孤独一人吗? 今天在学校,感觉特别的强烈
他们在排斥我吗? 我多心吗?
独自一人,坐在最前位子,希望有人可以与我谈天,希望落空.
努力找人来谈,全部都显得不理不睬
算了,真的该习惯了,别抱怨了
我没资格,谁叫我拥有着人人都恨得性格?
哈哈
你好,寂寞先生,,,

Music bring me new life

Music is a strange thing, it can control my emotion. It makes me smile, makes me cry, makes me happy, makes me sad. It bring away my sorrow, it bring me happy. It cure my wounds, it heal my scars, it is a doctor.
Glad my life has it, thank god had created it, thank those musicians make it even better, thank those singers sing them with their life.
Music accompany me walk through the life when I'm down.
Music taught me how to smile again after cry.
Music encourage me to stand up after I fall
Music tell me I got to be optimistic
Music let me see discover how beautiful the world is
Music makes everything become perfect
Music shows the poor and the rich are in same class
Music helped humans when they are in the hardship
Music bring laughter to the sad
Music change my world into colourful
Music bring my life...

My life could be so quiet

I use to be very noisy
I use to be very crazy
I use to be very active
I use to be very talkative

Sometimes, I try to not say anything
Silent hits me
That feeling so calm
so comfortable
like no one in my world
feeling so free
lying on my bed
listen to the silent
it's singing
with a sweet and comfort voice
that could bring me to a beautiful world
inside my deep heart core

It's strange
for me to be so quiet
I feel relax and nothing could break me
first time
and last forever
so calm...

Forgive me... I never say sorry

I don't know what I did to let you so angry, and I don't know where I did wrong. Is it I take your girl friend as a joke and keep on laughing on it? If that's it, then i own you a sorry.
Say sorry, for me not a difficult thing, but begging for forgiveness is really tired and I hate that feeling. Seeing you become quiet and so me, I'll take it as a chance for me to realize what should take as a joke and what shouldn't.
Sorry for taking you as a punishment for me, I remain quiet in front you is do not want to say anything that could irritate you, make you angry and anything I don't want to happen.
Well, I shouldn't say the thing at above, cause I don't have the right to beg for your forgiveness, I admit that I'm timid, I don't have the brave to say sorry.
Forgive me, if you can.

孤独，空虚

大概几个月了吧，生活变得跟以前没两样，性格也恢复了不少，和以前一样，、疯疯癫癫、爱闹。全因找到了以为适于抒发感情的朋友。
今天，很不幸的，我得罪了他。哎，想说玩玩，谁知又闯祸了。当下真想我的嘴烂掉。
放学，我依然不敢望他，想说：他不是很好脾气吗？怎么这样一点就气了？算了，不再对他开玩笑，自知嘴巴不好，免得祸从口出。
走在前往停脚踏车的地方，因为在大门的另一边，所以与别人分开行。在独自一人行走的当儿，听见不远处同学们有说有笑，好不热闹。听见了，心头不自觉地揪在一起，好不是滋味。为了避开这一切，我迅速的走进一条通往脚踏车停放处的走廊里，避开了那些声音。
走在又黑又安静的走廊里，心里顿时冒出很多事情、情绪、无奈... 感觉自己很失败、无能。
取了脚踏车后，我沉默的骑着它，踏上归家路。路上，心中无限难过，嘴里试着哼一首轻快的歌。心中感觉还是一样，不过踏实了许多...
脑子里想的，我知道都只是想罢了，永远不会实现，想到这心中顿时感到空虚。算了，现在我只想对他说，对不起。

Christina Aguilera Back with a powerful and incredible ALBUM !!

OMG !!!!!! It's Christina ! New album "Bionic" is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G !
Her voice are the best I ever heard among the female singer. No matter Blues, Pop, R&B, Rock n' Roll, Ballet and so on, her way to perform her songs is always stunning and great...
After her Hottest song "Beautiful", "Save Me From Myself" and others, this time, she had backed with her new album, "Bionic"





 
Bionic














You Lost Me








One More Song "Not Myself Tonight" also deserve for everyone to hear, YOU WILL GET ADDICTED TO IT !

《泡沫之夏》，好看 ！理解能力低者，最好别看。。。

最近，很多新戏上映，关于连续剧，更是不可胜数，但是在茫茫连续剧中，唯独泡沫之夏深深地吸引了我。吸引我的，有很多
1.）演员：演员包括了徐熙媛（大S），黄晓明以及何润东。徐熙媛的演技有更上一层楼了，原因是她近几年拍了不少作品：《未来警察》、《保持通话》、《大内密探零零狗》等等。至于黄晓明，他也不逊色，也拍了不少畅销作品，《风声》更为他得了不少提名，可见他的演技也不差。何润东，虽说没什么作品，但这次他不但是演员，而且还是制作人，也是因为他，这套戏才请得动以上两位大咖。
2.）剧情：剧情来自一位作家的畅销书，同名为《泡沫之夏》，已演艺圈为背景，讲述演艺圈艺人的勾心斗角，同时也有一段三角恋。此剧与其他偶像剧不同，他不完全只有偶像，也包含了一些人生真实的感情与状况。同时关众必须具备一定的理解能力，因为剧中有不时的回文，所以缺乏理解能力的观众可能会混淆。
这套剧真的很好看，片尾曲更是大S 隔别了多年再次尝试的演唱《钻石》 味道也很特别，细细品尝后，才会发现它是好的。

　我大力推荐大家去看这套剧，因为真的很好看 ！！

phew~ Bye Bye Form 4 Mid Sem~

Phew, what a tiring weeks... 2 weeks, I fought for 2 weeks ! Hmm... can't say like this, cause i never fight for it... I DIDN'T READ AT ALL !! Well, I'm quite believe in myself, cause I know that even if I read, but my result still same as I do not read, so... I read for what?
Anyway, my result are always predictable, keep on maintain in 5th~20th place, No A Some B and a lot C~
I hear people say:"Maintain is much harder than improve" therefore I'm proud of myself ! Mama ! Your Son are so PRO !!
Aww... this time I sure fall... Why? Because I met some vocabularies that we never meet... What? I don't know their meaning ! Directed Writing I didn't use one point ! Formal letter I don't know format !
Moreover, my chinese paper... My essay is not following what the title want... Chinese summary is limited 120 words, i wrote about 150++words...
OMG ! This time I'm gonna sing Usher's song "OMG" (Billboard Num.1)
lol... But everything is over, now I'm gonna enjoy my mid year holiday...
Bye Bye !! Mid Sem !!

Relieve, release, relize...

Finally, I found where the problem is... Phew... It tortured me for months and finally i realize in a couple days...
Sound sarcastic... I've been so stupid...
Anyway, at last I'm relieve and release from the pain, there are somebody I've to thanks, without them, I can't do this...
Well, now I'm really free from that pain and no more, stressing life is torturing me now~ Exam is coming~ I gotta do better than last time. God Bless Me~

Well, It's coming back again.

The feeling is coming back, I've tried to ignore it. I can't fight it, I'm totally lose to it. Today, the feeling disturbed me. I try to think positively. But after the informal assembly, I lost to it. I surrender.
I walk alone to my class, thinking of something. Something that I can't even explain myself what is that. There's too many things, mixed together. In that moment I was so lost. I don't know what should do. So I sat on my seat quietly. Without making a sound after the recess time was over.
When I backed to my lovely and stress-less home, I felt that, I'm really tired... Tired of this type of feeling. Feels like wanna cry, but I can't cry it out. When I was about to cry, the tears do not seem like wanna come out and comfort me... Just like they are telling me :"Darling, don't cry. You can make it through by yourself, you have to be more and more stronger !"
Well, I think this feeling is called stress... Though I'll never meet it, but now it had came and stealing my happy...
I think I know it comes from where... Comes from study, comes from friends, comes from parents and comes from myself...
Since last year, after I had a very big argue with my friend, everyday I felt so sad. Afraid of he will just disappear from my life. Many apologize I had made, and so far he didn't say that he still angry with me...
I think I've thought too much, just like what he said...
Come to my study, Form 4 do bring me a lot challenges... I use to be very happy last time and always free from stress that come from study, but this year, I had lost myself into the stress that bring by From 4. And now I'm so headache. I don't know where and what is the way I can release my stress. Share what's in my mind with friends? They seems like got no interested to it...
Nowadays my family especially my parent, keep on telling me that they have no money to let me go collage and I have to take scholarship... Their words are making me don't dare to get a bad result in my exam. I do pay more and more work on my study this year. I never felt so tired before....
The stress comes from myself, sometimes I felt funny of it. I know my personalities are not very good, and even can use the word "bad" to describe me. I used to tease people, and I've got a bit reckless on my words. I never be a thoughtful guy when I'm comment about people's things. I'd make a lot of people angry. According to my brother, this is the reason why I don't have many friends and perhaps there are some of my friends are hating me but still pretending happy when chat with me. Well, I admit that but I just don't know who are them.After that, I try to repair my bad things to a better stage. It's harder than I thought. My brainless personality always make me say out something that would make a dead volcano active again... I'm so sorry for that... But the "sorry" always comes after 1~2 hours...
Consequently, I'm totally disappointed to myself and sick of that feeling. Almost everyday I had to say sorry to at least one people... I am sick of it and so they too... So I think I better be silence and don't be so talkative... This is the way will make everything better... About the feeling... Nothing can do on it... Just let it be...

Am I? If I... Then Should I...

My bro told me, there is someone of my friends told him I am a proud guy. Well, I never think that I'm that bad inside people's eyes. I asked him, who is it? He refuse to tell me. Okay, I admit I was curious at that time, but now I don't. No point I know who is the person. Even if I know, so what? I can't do anything.
So, if I really that type a people, I think I mist make a change. So far I didn't be proud in front anyone, I know sometimes my words are irritating, but I'm not purposely.
My bro said I've got two faces, one is devil and one is angle, but he said the angle's face is fake one. I don't think so. I only have one face and I never pretend in front anyone. I used to be myself. Since he commented me about that thing, then meant that other people think that too.
I should make a change. No, should be changes. I've started since the starting of this year. It's not enough. I should make more. Suddenly I felt so lost. What is the thing should say and what is the thing shouldn't say, I don't know. I really don't know...

Am I wrong?

Feels like I was wrong. Cause seems like everything is still same. I shouldn't blame. Everything is turn back normal. Can laugh, Can play, Can joke, Can tease, Can scold.
haha, this is what I'm trying to search for about several months.
Hmm, feel so good.
So am I wrong for blaming? Nobody could tell me the answer, even myself
haha, just forget about it. If I really wronged, I say sorry to those who thinks that I was wrong. Sorry ! xD

Whats is the "friend" meant by you?

Can't you hear that there is somebody crying because of you?
Can't you sense that there is somebody suffering because of your coldness?
Can't you feel that there is somebody scare of somethings because of you?
Can't you think that your one "Hi" or a warm smile could make some people feel better?
Can't you ever felt these things?
Or your world just have your seniors, family, games, study, and those friends?
You've have totally forgot what are us for you, you said we are still friends, then why the way you treat us is totally different with other?
What type of friend we are for you? Friends you don't know? We are nothing to you? We are not human? Or you just say a "friend" to comfort us?
If it is, then you can keep back the word "friend" cause we thinks that we don't even need it.

Cause your "friend" is just confusing us what is the real meaning of "friend"
We are still think that you are still our best friend, we treat you sincerely, always caring about you, still though that we still can chat happily like last time.
But you're too cruel, you prove that you had changed, you are ain't the same.
The "you" we knew had disappear.
However we now still hoping for you to come back, once again be our friend. Can you?
We've did nothing, and you just change so suddenly, without leaving us a warning. You are now colder than last time,
I can felt it, although I'm stupid.
Anyway, as I said we are still the same, treating you as our best friend. Whenever you need a helping hand, don't be shy to ask. We are always here.

Friend? Normal Friend? Stranger? I really don't get it.

So many days past by, day after day and the wound finally become a scar. No feeling now. Though that still can be friend, but it's hard cause seems like we both don't have the same topic. Whenever I stat a topic, what he answer is just feel like wanna end the topic as soon as possible. After tired finding topic, I just silent when i see him. So what? I did wrong? He started to walk further and further from my friends list. Ya actually still wan him to be my friend my what if people don't feel like that?
He comes talk with me, I don't know how to answer and every time give a stupid answer, I really don't know what he asking and what type of answer can satisfy him. He is such a genius and I don't dare share too much things with him, cause feels like he will just pick the useful point and dump all the useless suggestion.
Nowadays his friends and him were really interested in discussing about a game call "Dota". Yap i played that game and the time I play maybe longer than everyone of them, but I just don't like them so interested with it. For me it's just a game, after I played it I'll just forget about it and don't know how to discuss with them...
So I said we both really don't have any topic that we both got interested with. When facebook, I'll see how he comment on his senior and friends post compare to mine, very obvious that he still want to continue the comment with his senior/ friends and some time skipped mine or just left an answer "donno". So a "friend" without chatting is really a friend? sometimes I smile to him, he replied me a cool smile, just like a Chinese idioms "Skin smiled but the muscle or meat never smile"
Actually I want ask that "friend" are you really think that I'm your friend? But i know the answer will be "yes" and i knew that, that won't be a sincere answer. Honestly I just don't want to make the condition worse and I know the answer in his heart actually. He is just same with me, a friend even is a fake friend is always better than an enemy. So, how you think about the answer in his heart?

Suffering Birthday Eve...

Tomorrow, is the day I born to this world since 16 years ago... Unfortunately, I've fall sick... So scare this time is dengue fever again... Last year already one time... Phew, hope this time won't be dengue again... Now I'm sitting in front my computer, typing my blog with fan-off... Forcing myself to sweat...
Yeah, I'm sweating now. I'm feel better now... But how about tomorrow? If tomorrow I'm not totally recover, I'll pass my birthday in hospital...
Why the God keeps on let me sick? This year is a very important year for me... Everything pass by me with a speed as fast as lighting... If I went hospital and proved I'm dengue again, my study will seriously delay and hard to chase back...
God ! Pity me and let me recover please... Please...

Torture !

After suffered one week, finally I've finished the exam... First time I feel so tired on it. Last time when I was still form3, I never felt so stressful. Maybe the competition in my class, no should say in my form was increased. Most of them start or started or starting to hit their new record in exam. Similarly, me too.
Some of them come and tell me directly that they wanna challenge me. It's a kind of stress. If i just give up, they will say I'm looking down them, but they are really hard to beat... I've tried my best...
My first Addition Mathematics paper, officially dead ! I forgot the formula and blanked about 5 question. No more~
haiz... Headache , really headache... Always wake up at the midnight... so tried... suffering...
Physic, BM, BI, Model Mathematics... Wish you all go with peace and bring me peace too...
When school reopen, it's my time to dead... TORTURE !!!

A fake skin.

A person with smile on face everyday actually having a frail and scaring for hurts heart. They smile, just want to hide their sad. Never think of showing their real emotion. They are wearing a fake skin...
In people's eyes, they are optimistic and having a positive thinking. But in their heart, there are a lot of sadness, scars, sorrow and bleeding wounds. Thought they are happy, actually they are sad. Cry alone in the middle night, lock themselves in a dark room, hurting their body... There are nowhere for them to release their sadness and pain.
So sometimes you'll see some happy persons totally changed their personality in one day or the worst, they find their final destination, die...
Nobody know what are them thinking, what they wanted...
But when the things happened, hence all start to ask the sake, full of why? why? why?
So, try to understand and concern about your friends now before it is too late. They need you.

Haha ^^

Today, for me can say is the most happiest day since the school start until now. Skipped many classes xD
Where I went? What is the reason and what happened to make me this hard working boy obedient boy skipped class?
I went to help those Chinese debaters found some points for let them win in the coming debate competition
I found a lot things and wei pin too. We both helped them get some useful points to help them fight back their "enemies"
But when at the last moment, our guiding teacher, Pn. Tey called the organiser and confirmed the title... and finally we know that we are discuss in a wrong title =.= The title that we discussed should be the enemies' title...
wakakaka then we all have no idea and have to start to find the new points. But when we found some points in opposite way, we all felt that we are sure losing cause there is a point in opposite side and it is hard to fight back... When we still don't know our real title, that point is our saver, but when we knew our title, that point became our killer
=.= so weird huh? Haha Hope the opposite side, may not know the point or we will lose =.=

NWP Stop It !

Ngan Wei Pin ! Stop adding pressure to me T_T I know how much I have and I know it is impossible to win you... Stop tell people that I can win you in front me...=.=
What if I lose you? Only make me embarrass =.= But I appreciate it since you gt so much confident on me ^^(actually what are you thinking I don't know la, or you just try to comfort me?) haha whatever~

A challenging ! An Improvement !

Wow ! Originally a challenging can make one person improve... I finally knew it ! My class is full with genius and one of the cleverest come and challenge me Biology !
As I don't wan embarrass by him, I even pay more concentration when tuition =.= afraid of losing and laugh by him, I know he won't either way
haha
But I won't give him any chance to laugh me ! I can only say this before exam cause I don't how will the result be...

LOL Funny... How Come Now then I realise it?

LOL funny  ! Super Funny ! No wonder all think I am a gay... aiz.... I too concern about that friend ship and scaring of losing it =.= Aww~ Please don't misunderstand. I am still normal xD
In school I keep on thinking why everyone say I'm a gay whenever I wrote or tell something about him, then think of why i so concern about it, then link to why don't i treat him as i treat other? xD I don't even need to find a topic to chat with him, when I got something to chat with him, automatically it can become a topic, didn't it?
Aiyaya~ I think this thing had already made a big trouble to him, and no wonder why he become so cool=.= maybe I am too enthusiasm compare to him... aiz aiz~
Wahahaha suddenly feel so free when I finally solve my problem, actually I don't even need to feel guilty if he never blame me...
Argh ~ I want to say sorry to him if I really get him into hot water... Please do forgive my foolishness ~.~

I have a Friend...

I have a friend, he is quite cool, he made me upset sometimes... All because of he doesn't seems like wanna be a very good friend with me.
Actually I really hope to become one of his best friend. He is a very kind man, humble and sometimes quite funny. But after that conflict caused among us, he looks like totally disappointed on me. I've sad for whole holiday (Nov- Dec) everyday blame myself why am I so stupid go and play that game with him.
After holiday we went back to school, I still same class with him. He still the same... never smile on me and like I'm transparent. Seeing him chat with other friends, his laugh, his smile make me missed last time before the conflict happened... It quite suffer huh...
I know the problem was on me, I don't dare go and have a chat with him... Scaring of he do not reply me...
Finally, I started my first conversation with him in Facebook... After a couple week, I start Msn him and now we're good back already... I still feel guilty... And now I can't find any topic to chat with him... I just can follow what he do and try find some topic to chat... I'm so stupid huh? I feel that way so... So what can I do now? In real life we cant chat... But when he online in Msn/Facebook/Blogspot, I can chat with him...
Maybe it is just what I think and actually the truth is not as bad as I though... =.=

LOL This is the CNY gift from by brother to my parent ^^

So this is very clear, my father is so sad when he saw his lover's face were collapsed xD wahahaha
This had done during CNY and that day is my brother's friend birthday. He drive this car go her birthday party and clumsily crash to a streetlight pole...
My mom scolded him and I was happy that time ^^ cause this is the best show for me after some lame days...
wahahaha but finally I'm also scolded by my mum cause she was very angry and I'm innocently get inside the war...
Sweat~
By the way if u know my brother please don't tell him about I posted his present out... If u do then my life will get in risk... PLEASE ! T_T

Oh My Gosh !

Oh My Gosh ! Its already March ! The time is passing like a flashing light ! I just read my friend's blog, his vocabulary... LOL too hard for me... I do need a dictionary beside me when I read his article ! I always do ! How he memorize such many words? I wonder is his brain got memory card? FREAK ! But never mind, at least I can learn some vocabulary from him.. wakakaka
Yep the friend i mentioned above is weipin, you can log on to weipintalk.blogger.com to take a look...
wahaha my blog... The language i used... sometimes I don't even know is my statement correct or not... It is really Oh My Gosh when I found out there are some mistakes in my article... But fortunately, my blog are not famous as other, cause seems like nobody come and view my blog T_T
sometimes I feel quite sad when I think about this.
Aiz... I have not idea about this cause my English really sucks ! But no one i can blame... except myself...
Phew~ nothing to write already. Is time to end this boring article~
Bye Bye~

Phew... A lie Isn't it?

Phew... Phew... Phew... Chinese New Year was already a past tense and future continuous tense now... Yesterday known as eastern Valentine Day... and newspaper told me the moon yesterday will be the biggest one in last 53 years... maybe larger than sun... but yesterday i saw it, it is as small as ab egg... =.= how come...
The newspaper told a lie? Haiz... Disappointed... T_T

It's the time... Be Prepare...

Finally ! It comes ! The war ! That we will never had a chance to dodge it ! Form 4 First Term Year Exam ! The starting of the war ! After this the competition in every class will start...
Some of them already feel their challengers ! It's beside of you ! Even in other classes !
they are scary, genius, insane !
they are extraordinary !
But they will never admit that they wanted to challenge you !
they are leaving a chance for themselves !
If they lose you, it still won't humiliate themselves
If they win you, They will do nothing but they'll happy and find another challenger...
So please Be Hardworking and let your challengers know you are not that easy !
All The Best ! xD

Finally...

Finally I felt tired to comment on people post in Facebook again... Everytime also get scolded by the post-er or his/her friends...
So, I decide to SHUT MY STINKY MOUTH UP for i think after exam...
So u all please cherish the time...
I'll Be Back !

I'm Innocent !

Don't say that I'm cold blooded ! I'm not purposely to wrote that statement, I just want to tell him something that i felt too ! I just wanted to share the feeling with him ! Since he so rude and so hate me after the misunderstanding, I think I have the right to not say sorry to him.
By the way I have to thank him for being so honest to me, he said he hate me for a long time already, okay, i accept his reason to delete me from Facebook and Msn...
So, I admit I'm too selfish when thinking something, i shouldn't share the feeling with him without asking his permission !
Argh ! If I've got something pissing you off, yes you can come and scold or even critic me, I won't mind, But please don be so rude and i never ask you to accept and endure my everything ! You can say out loud and I'll try to change !
So he didn't give me any chances and I don't know where had I did wrong.
In this world, who are totally perfect? nor me !

I online because of you !

Most my friends know I'm very active in surfing internet, although all the website I'm active in just only Facebook, manga, and recently active in Blogger too.. Haha, My life is that easy~
But the main point I online is just go date with my lovely songs only~ and find my friends in msn to crap~
My stupid cellphone, the sound quality is really BAD BAD and Bad ! it is all i can describe my mobile...
in addition, the memory not very big also... T_T i can't keep all my songs in the my mobile
Aww so i have to on computer~
Hehe~ every time when i hear to my songs, i will forgot everything, follow the melody and sing the songs out... Don't care how people feel... as long as i happy that's all ~
If I got a better cell phone or a bigger memory, for sure i won't online in every couple minutes~

What should I do?

Aww... I'm dieting without my family know... In another words is I'm dieting secretly.
Why i do so is because I already told them I want to diet many times last time... they seems like not very trust me now because I didn't make what I told them... So this time I'll won't tell them
so if I failed to slim down myself, they won't laugh on me and tease me, coz they're don't know xD
Phew... yesterday... I ate a lot again... No matter how I try to adore all the carbohydrate and fat, My mum keep on use those food to attack my stomach, mind and mouth... If i rejected her, my life will has many miserable...
But when i ate those food, my mum will laugh again... say:"Wahahahaha you said you want keep fit, don't you?" then together with my brother laugh in front me...THEY ARE DEMONS !
ROAR !! They're big stones. no, no, should say they are a wide,high and big wall that keep on blocking my way to the L size clothes and cool jeans...
T_T
argh !!! ARGH !!!

Getting stupid and stupid...

Feel so lost recently, sometimes don't even know what am i doing or talking, after somethings stupid then i realise... at that time all people are looking me and laughing...
So confuse... Argh !! Feels like my IQ is going down and down.
Keep on thinking somethings funny and impossible...
The only reason i can give myself for thinking so much is because my horoscope...
I'm Pieces ! According to someone proficient in horoscope, Pieces love to think and full of imagination...
I quite agree about it... T_T
What is the cure of this? Help me~ am i stress myself too much?
=.= arghhh !!

Kelly Clarkson ! My Idol Is Coming~

Kelly Clarkson is coming to Malaysia!! After American Idol Season 8 winner Kris Allen wowed his fans in Malaysia recently, the first Idol ever Kelly Clarkson has confirmed that she will be performing in Kuala Lumpur on April 25th

Although it is DAMNLY interesting... But the price of the cheapest ticket is even more interesting ! So, what i can do is just spread the news~ and desire for somebody sponso r... T_T Although I know it was building castle on the air...

No More Easy...

Form 4 is no more easy for me, before that i can always hear somebody says form 4 is a honey moon for all students... I think they're lying... If want to compare i think Form1~3 is the sweetest and happiest time ever...
Feeling headache recently... After Chinese New Year is even more serious...By The Way a belated Gong Xi Fa Chai to all~
Phew... Hope i can use to my life faster... Cause it is a kind of torture ! Argh !! Sometimes still don't know what am i doing...
Actually what am i writing now?

Carrie Underwood : My Favorite singer~

Wow ! Carrie Underwood ! What an amazing country singer ! She was great and far better than Taylor Swift, although Taylor was a really good singer too. ^^
I don't know why every time I want to share her songs to my friends, seems like nobody got interest to her... Maybe her name is not know by them... But i think they all should know her, because it was such a big loss if they've miss her !
Phew... her songs really nice, and no doubt she is better than Taylor. Taylor Swift can say is just a kid if compare to Carrie...
here is some songs I love the most, you may know them, cause some of them had been nominated in Grammy Awards and other music awards~
"Just A Dream" "Jesus, Take The Wheel" "Temporary Home" "I Know You Won't" "So Small" "What Can I Say"(featuring Son Of Sylvia) "Wasted" "Change"
I really love to share the nice songs to all of them, they don't know cherish and appreciate them...
T_T So I just can write down here and hope some of you may go and try~

New Blog...Old scars

Every time when I was trying to write a blog, for sure I'll forget or don't know how to write what I'm thinking. Thought it will be very easy but when I'm gonna start a new blog, what left in my mind is blank.
I'll count this time as my first time because all the previous articles were rubbish !
This time, what i want to write is about me and my friend...
Last time before that misunderstanding happen, we're still very good friends, but after that, no more left and however I'm trying to find back, chase back the past, but I'm failed at last.
The friendship is just like a boiling water... It keeps on boil and boil and at last all the water had evaporated...
Well, we are now still same class, and our friendship can say was already nothing, but i still can felt the scars in our friendship, when will the scars disappear and the hurt is finally recovered, it is still a question mark for me.
I'm so miss what I had last time...
a friend is too important for me, I don't want to lose him and all my friends
Everyday hoping we could become as good as last time, but the guilty in my heart and my mind make my every steps difficult when I trying to chat wif him
I know that thing was already nothing for him, but I still felt sorry...
At last, I want to say sorry again to him... I don't know whether he will read my blog or not... But I just want him to know...SORRY !