New Blog...Old scars

Every time when I was trying to write a blog, for sure I'll forget or don't know how to write what I'm thinking. Thought it will be very easy but when I'm gonna start a new blog, what left in my mind is blank.
I'll count this time as my first time because all the previous articles were rubbish !
This time, what i want to write is about me and my friend...
Last time before that misunderstanding happen, we're still very good friends, but after that, no more left and however I'm trying to find back, chase back the past, but I'm failed at last.
The friendship is just like a boiling water... It keeps on boil and boil and at last all the water had evaporated...
Well, we are now still same class, and our friendship can say was already nothing, but i still can felt the scars in our friendship, when will the scars disappear and the hurt is finally recovered, it is still a question mark for me.
I'm so miss what I had last time...
a friend is too important for me, I don't want to lose him and all my friends
Everyday hoping we could become as good as last time, but the guilty in my heart and my mind make my every steps difficult when I trying to chat wif him
I know that thing was already nothing for him, but I still felt sorry...
At last, I want to say sorry again to him... I don't know whether he will read my blog or not... But I just want him to know...SORRY !