Whats is the "friend" meant by you?

Can't you hear that there is somebody crying because of you?
Can't you sense that there is somebody suffering because of your coldness?
Can't you feel that there is somebody scare of somethings because of you?
Can't you think that your one "Hi" or a warm smile could make some people feel better?
Can't you ever felt these things?
Or your world just have your seniors, family, games, study, and those friends?
You've have totally forgot what are us for you, you said we are still friends, then why the way you treat us is totally different with other?
What type of friend we are for you? Friends you don't know? We are nothing to you? We are not human? Or you just say a "friend" to comfort us?
If it is, then you can keep back the word "friend" cause we thinks that we don't even need it.

Cause your "friend" is just confusing us what is the real meaning of "friend"
We are still think that you are still our best friend, we treat you sincerely, always caring about you, still though that we still can chat happily like last time.
But you're too cruel, you prove that you had changed, you are ain't the same.
The "you" we knew had disappear.
However we now still hoping for you to come back, once again be our friend. Can you?
We've did nothing, and you just change so suddenly, without leaving us a warning. You are now colder than last time,
I can felt it, although I'm stupid.
Anyway, as I said we are still the same, treating you as our best friend. Whenever you need a helping hand, don't be shy to ask. We are always here.

Friend? Normal Friend? Stranger? I really don't get it.

So many days past by, day after day and the wound finally become a scar. No feeling now. Though that still can be friend, but it's hard cause seems like we both don't have the same topic. Whenever I stat a topic, what he answer is just feel like wanna end the topic as soon as possible. After tired finding topic, I just silent when i see him. So what? I did wrong? He started to walk further and further from my friends list. Ya actually still wan him to be my friend my what if people don't feel like that?
He comes talk with me, I don't know how to answer and every time give a stupid answer, I really don't know what he asking and what type of answer can satisfy him. He is such a genius and I don't dare share too much things with him, cause feels like he will just pick the useful point and dump all the useless suggestion.
Nowadays his friends and him were really interested in discussing about a game call "Dota". Yap i played that game and the time I play maybe longer than everyone of them, but I just don't like them so interested with it. For me it's just a game, after I played it I'll just forget about it and don't know how to discuss with them...
So I said we both really don't have any topic that we both got interested with. When facebook, I'll see how he comment on his senior and friends post compare to mine, very obvious that he still want to continue the comment with his senior/ friends and some time skipped mine or just left an answer "donno". So a "friend" without chatting is really a friend? sometimes I smile to him, he replied me a cool smile, just like a Chinese idioms "Skin smiled but the muscle or meat never smile"
Actually I want ask that "friend" are you really think that I'm your friend? But i know the answer will be "yes" and i knew that, that won't be a sincere answer. Honestly I just don't want to make the condition worse and I know the answer in his heart actually. He is just same with me, a friend even is a fake friend is always better than an enemy. So, how you think about the answer in his heart?

Suffering Birthday Eve...

Tomorrow, is the day I born to this world since 16 years ago... Unfortunately, I've fall sick... So scare this time is dengue fever again... Last year already one time... Phew, hope this time won't be dengue again... Now I'm sitting in front my computer, typing my blog with fan-off... Forcing myself to sweat...
Yeah, I'm sweating now. I'm feel better now... But how about tomorrow? If tomorrow I'm not totally recover, I'll pass my birthday in hospital...
Why the God keeps on let me sick? This year is a very important year for me... Everything pass by me with a speed as fast as lighting... If I went hospital and proved I'm dengue again, my study will seriously delay and hard to chase back...
God ! Pity me and let me recover please... Please...

Torture !

After suffered one week, finally I've finished the exam... First time I feel so tired on it. Last time when I was still form3, I never felt so stressful. Maybe the competition in my class, no should say in my form was increased. Most of them start or started or starting to hit their new record in exam. Similarly, me too.
Some of them come and tell me directly that they wanna challenge me. It's a kind of stress. If i just give up, they will say I'm looking down them, but they are really hard to beat... I've tried my best...
My first Addition Mathematics paper, officially dead ! I forgot the formula and blanked about 5 question. No more~
haiz... Headache , really headache... Always wake up at the midnight... so tried... suffering...
Physic, BM, BI, Model Mathematics... Wish you all go with peace and bring me peace too...
When school reopen, it's my time to dead... TORTURE !!!

A fake skin.

A person with smile on face everyday actually having a frail and scaring for hurts heart. They smile, just want to hide their sad. Never think of showing their real emotion. They are wearing a fake skin...
In people's eyes, they are optimistic and having a positive thinking. But in their heart, there are a lot of sadness, scars, sorrow and bleeding wounds. Thought they are happy, actually they are sad. Cry alone in the middle night, lock themselves in a dark room, hurting their body... There are nowhere for them to release their sadness and pain.
So sometimes you'll see some happy persons totally changed their personality in one day or the worst, they find their final destination, die...
Nobody know what are them thinking, what they wanted...
But when the things happened, hence all start to ask the sake, full of why? why? why?
So, try to understand and concern about your friends now before it is too late. They need you.

Haha ^^

Today, for me can say is the most happiest day since the school start until now. Skipped many classes xD
Where I went? What is the reason and what happened to make me this hard working boy obedient boy skipped class?
I went to help those Chinese debaters found some points for let them win in the coming debate competition
I found a lot things and wei pin too. We both helped them get some useful points to help them fight back their "enemies"
But when at the last moment, our guiding teacher, Pn. Tey called the organiser and confirmed the title... and finally we know that we are discuss in a wrong title =.= The title that we discussed should be the enemies' title...
wakakaka then we all have no idea and have to start to find the new points. But when we found some points in opposite way, we all felt that we are sure losing cause there is a point in opposite side and it is hard to fight back... When we still don't know our real title, that point is our saver, but when we knew our title, that point became our killer
=.= so weird huh? Haha Hope the opposite side, may not know the point or we will lose =.=

NWP Stop It !

Ngan Wei Pin ! Stop adding pressure to me T_T I know how much I have and I know it is impossible to win you... Stop tell people that I can win you in front me...=.=
What if I lose you? Only make me embarrass =.= But I appreciate it since you gt so much confident on me ^^(actually what are you thinking I don't know la, or you just try to comfort me?) haha whatever~

A challenging ! An Improvement !

Wow ! Originally a challenging can make one person improve... I finally knew it ! My class is full with genius and one of the cleverest come and challenge me Biology !
As I don't wan embarrass by him, I even pay more concentration when tuition =.= afraid of losing and laugh by him, I know he won't either way
haha
But I won't give him any chance to laugh me ! I can only say this before exam cause I don't how will the result be...

LOL Funny... How Come Now then I realise it?

LOL funny  ! Super Funny ! No wonder all think I am a gay... aiz.... I too concern about that friend ship and scaring of losing it =.= Aww~ Please don't misunderstand. I am still normal xD
In school I keep on thinking why everyone say I'm a gay whenever I wrote or tell something about him, then think of why i so concern about it, then link to why don't i treat him as i treat other? xD I don't even need to find a topic to chat with him, when I got something to chat with him, automatically it can become a topic, didn't it?
Aiyaya~ I think this thing had already made a big trouble to him, and no wonder why he become so cool=.= maybe I am too enthusiasm compare to him... aiz aiz~
Wahahaha suddenly feel so free when I finally solve my problem, actually I don't even need to feel guilty if he never blame me...
Argh ~ I want to say sorry to him if I really get him into hot water... Please do forgive my foolishness ~.~

I have a Friend...

I have a friend, he is quite cool, he made me upset sometimes... All because of he doesn't seems like wanna be a very good friend with me.
Actually I really hope to become one of his best friend. He is a very kind man, humble and sometimes quite funny. But after that conflict caused among us, he looks like totally disappointed on me. I've sad for whole holiday (Nov- Dec) everyday blame myself why am I so stupid go and play that game with him.
After holiday we went back to school, I still same class with him. He still the same... never smile on me and like I'm transparent. Seeing him chat with other friends, his laugh, his smile make me missed last time before the conflict happened... It quite suffer huh...
I know the problem was on me, I don't dare go and have a chat with him... Scaring of he do not reply me...
Finally, I started my first conversation with him in Facebook... After a couple week, I start Msn him and now we're good back already... I still feel guilty... And now I can't find any topic to chat with him... I just can follow what he do and try find some topic to chat... I'm so stupid huh? I feel that way so... So what can I do now? In real life we cant chat... But when he online in Msn/Facebook/Blogspot, I can chat with him...
Maybe it is just what I think and actually the truth is not as bad as I though... =.=

LOL This is the CNY gift from by brother to my parent ^^

So this is very clear, my father is so sad when he saw his lover's face were collapsed xD wahahaha
This had done during CNY and that day is my brother's friend birthday. He drive this car go her birthday party and clumsily crash to a streetlight pole...
My mom scolded him and I was happy that time ^^ cause this is the best show for me after some lame days...
wahahaha but finally I'm also scolded by my mum cause she was very angry and I'm innocently get inside the war...
Sweat~
By the way if u know my brother please don't tell him about I posted his present out... If u do then my life will get in risk... PLEASE ! T_T

Oh My Gosh !

Oh My Gosh ! Its already March ! The time is passing like a flashing light ! I just read my friend's blog, his vocabulary... LOL too hard for me... I do need a dictionary beside me when I read his article ! I always do ! How he memorize such many words? I wonder is his brain got memory card? FREAK ! But never mind, at least I can learn some vocabulary from him.. wakakaka
Yep the friend i mentioned above is weipin, you can log on to weipintalk.blogger.com to take a look...
wahaha my blog... The language i used... sometimes I don't even know is my statement correct or not... It is really Oh My Gosh when I found out there are some mistakes in my article... But fortunately, my blog are not famous as other, cause seems like nobody come and view my blog T_T
sometimes I feel quite sad when I think about this.
Aiz... I have not idea about this cause my English really sucks ! But no one i can blame... except myself...
Phew~ nothing to write already. Is time to end this boring article~
Bye Bye~